PHEW!
I'm back!
I knew I would return to blogging, just didn't know when.
How bout now?!
So, where to begin?
How bout I just jump in, head first without my nose plugged?
I am divorced.
Gosh, when I type it out it actually looks much worse than it really is.
I remember right after I decided to get divorced,
I wrote the word in my journal and it made me sick to my stomach.
I wrote the word in my journal and it made me sick to my stomach.
It's just not a pretty word no matter how you look at it.
No amount of words could ever describe the pain and heartache
associated with divorce. It actually surpised me!
I remember thinking "I know this is the right thing to do.
Never had I recieved an answer so clear. So if I'm doing what's right, why does it hurt?"
But the heartache quickly turned to peace and that peace is pure happiness!
And I LOVE being happy!!
So while the word still isn't pretty, I've found happiness.
And "Happy" is a fabulous word!!
It's also a fabulous feeling!
My heart is full of gratitude for the many wonderful friends and family who
overwhelmed me with love and support.
I was afraid of being judged.
The amount of love and support I recived FAR outeighed the unfair judgements.
I am blessed!
My kids are doing amazing! We have had a lot of hard talks.
It hasn't been easy and the challenges will continue.
But I know in Whom I have put my trust.
My faith is strong! I will keep fighting a good fight.
The rewards have exceeded the challenges.
So, was it worth all the heartache and sorrow?
You betcha!
I'm happy. More happy than I ever thought possible.
The Lord is good to me.
Grateful. Happy. Blessed.
Next chapter, please.
7 comments:
You are fabulous! I'm so glad your blogging again! Hope to see you soon!!
You are so AWESOME!!! I love your happy guts.
Shari: You ALWAYS inspire me. I do not understand how Glade could take you for granted and let you go! You are a tremendous woman with powerhouse faith. I am grateful for the shining light of Christ that emanates from your eyes. I am a lucky duck to know you!
Love you Shari! You are amazing! Still need to hang out!!
Did I tell you that you are an amazing person? And I love your personality. Continue to be you!
:) By the way... you have the best kids. Must be their mom!
Claudia
This is where I wish I had a time machine! Where was I at this time? Being a Lone Gunslinger! Riding with just my trusty horse and loyal dog Shep! I had a sincere dream, to find the Woman of my dreams! Once I found her I would spend the rest of my days looking into those eyes, seeing her smile and hearing her laugh! Most of all I dreamed of hearing "I Love You!" I was loosing my faith. A fear that was creeping in! " Maybe you are meant to ride on this trail of life alone!!!"
I cry because Hell doesn't discriminate!!! I know you are about to experience some of the Lowest and Loneliest times of your life!!! Days you never asked for or deserved! If I had a time machine I would protect you from all these pains! But somebody else had already felt and endured these pains! I couldn't change the past without affecting the future. If I could do one thing I would drop a note in front of your shopping cart at the grocery store. Your name would be on the front and this is what it would say "You don't know me yet. But you will shortly! You have some life experience you must obtain before we meet! In your darkest hour know this! I Promise I will Find you!!! You will be Loved and Adored more then you ever thought was possible! Signed, your future Husband"
I Love you Baby! Now that I found you, I will never leave your side!
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