Me. Just Me.

Here I am. All alone since Wednesday early afternoon.

It has been both a relaxing and productive week.

Wednesday I went shopping & to dinner with my good friend, Lisa Hall.

Every girl needs to have a friend like her.

She has helped me a lot these past few months.

Later that night we met up with a bunch of other great friends at the movies.

We saw "The Green Lantern" with Ryan Reynolds.

One word...Yum.

Thursday I went to the spa. If I had endless amounts of money,

I would go there at least once a month.

I got an hour and a half massage with the hot rocks

and a pedicure with the french tip gels.

My toes look so cute!

Friday I groomed in the morning, went to the temple,

came back to Perry and donated blood.

I had never done it before so I was worried that I would pass out

or something dramatic. Nothing dramatic happened.

Success.

Today (Saturday) I have been cleaning and organizing my basement.

I started with my storage area, then did the office/library,

then the toy closet. Yikes! It is alllll done and it is marvelous!!

I really love a clean and organized house.

It will only stay this way til the kids get home tomorrow night.

Which leads me to another topic.

Transitions.

So, when I have my kids I'm in Mommy mode.

I've been playing that role for 11 years.

I think I got it down, though I'm FAR from perfect.

But it's pretty fair to say, I know mostly what I'm doing.

The new part I'm learning to play is that of simply being a woman...no kids.

When they go with their Dad, I'm just me. Well, I haven't been just me for 14 years!

It's different. I'm learning a lot about myself.

I have learned that I am responsible for making ME happy.

No one else can do it for me. It's a choice. Sometimes a hard one.

But unless I make that choice, it's all just fake.

I can't even begin to tell you how much I HATE fake!

I am learning to pray more when I need help.

It's good to have friends and family to give support and advice when needed

but too often do I pick up the phone rather than go to my knees.

I have focused on this more this week and I have loved feeling so much joy and peace!

And on a lighter note, I have learned that you can go on facebook naked.

What?! I was waiting for the bath to fill up...I had to do something.

It felt so naughty! I could see there were people on line

but no one knew I was sending messages in the nude!

I will probably do it again.

While this is not all I have learned and I still have so much more to learn,

I have found that I like me!

I like being alone. I like going out with friends. I like going on dates.

I've only been on a couple but I'm looking forward to more!

I am confident in who I am and where I'm going.

So as far as being me....just me...I kinda like it!

I think I'll keep me.